Sunday, May 29, 2011

yellow

one more thing! this song came on my ipod the other day and i forgot how much i love this song... anyways... enjoy--
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you

journall

Good weekend was had by Stevie Hansgen this weekend. Caught up with old friends, met some new people, etc. anyways, this post might be super lame to some of you so bear with me or just feel free to stop reading at anytime. So I was reading in my journal the other day and I was  laughing so hard because some of the things I wrote about I remembered thinking “holy crap! I will never get over this!!” or “ahh Id rather die than have to deal with this” and now looking back on it, they all were such small stupid things that I obviously got over and am now breathing and I'm okay now! But this all just made me think about how little stuff that people did in elementary school, jr high and high school were such big deals and now no one remembers and if they do, we are all over it. Its such a better place to be when youre happy with who you are, what youre doing and who youre trying to be. I'm glad that I was able to overcome the stupid relationship drama, the friendship crap and all the things in between. I'm thankful for the many people in my life who have given and will continue giving me extra chances to make my wrongs right again. Goodnight and have a happy Sunday !





Thursday, May 26, 2011

recover

Consider the four things you can't recover -

1)The stone......after it's thrown.
2)The word.......after it's said.
3)The occasion...after it's missed.
4)The time.......after it's gone.
 
-Kerie Stuth.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

concert-oz

i just bought one of cades birthday presents and truely its more of a present for me then it is his but the event fall on his birthday so... we are going to it! ha! ive been stoked for this concert forever and i finally dragged my lazy but to get our tickets just today! but anyways... drumm rolll....

i got us tickets to the concert ...

Slightly Stoopid

Shwayze

and Rebelution

concerts are totally our thing in the summer. actually always.. but this is one i will not  be missing...
other ones we plan on attending are...
brett dennen

kid cudi

kenney chesney (cade refused so i will have to tag along with friends)

matisyahu

and 311 is coming sublime and rome.








 

grandmas and stuff

sometimes im silly and just find random questions and copy and paste random things and answer them on here... like anyone cares? hmm... well actually ive never done that but i dont know what else to blog about tonight so there you have it. ps. i think im the only person in the slc vally that in enjoying the rain we have been having, i guess this means i could live in oregon or something. hmm....happy end-of-monday everybody.

127.Were you ever in a limousine?
yeah. homecoming, prom etc. oh and one time we got a limo and drove around in the veg. (vegas) and went to ride new york new york rollercoaster and the statosphere crap. too much fun.


128. Were you ever in a hot-air balloon?

 no. dont bring it up because i hate the fact i havent ever been on one. grh.


129. Have you ever gone bungie-jumping?
urgh.. also a sore subject.


130. Did you ever forget something really important?

hahahhaha yeah, i know i have. but i forgot what it was. (no joke)


131. Write about an experience in a hospital. yuck. when my friend rachel and paul blew up. i hated that. i dont want to talk about it anymore.

132. Were you ever accused of something you didn't do?
urgh, yeah. which sucks. but sometimes i got accused of things i did actually take part in so that sucks too sometimes.


133. Write about a disastrous trip or vacation.
never had one that i can think of. SIKE one time my parents made me go to Twin Falls Idaho and it was the worst and then they decided that we were going to stay 2 more days on a whim. yeah i hated that.

134. Were you ever in a fire, flood, tornado, or hurricane?
no, no, no, no. whew, that was close.

135. Describe the best concert you ever attended.
TOO HARD. urghh... matisyahu was amazing, loved modest mouse, LOVED dirty heads, also enjoyed red hot chili peppers... okay im done theres more but i dont want to name anymore. that was too hard.

136. Did you ever become friends with someone much older or much younger than you?
hmm... much younger? not so much. i dont know why but i only really got to know people that were like a year younger then me in school. bummer. but i have older friends from work, school, friends of friends etc. having friends that were older was never something that was hard for me. meh thats all.



my mother, myself and grandma pauline

grandma hansgen and myself squashing her.

ps i just thought about how i missed both of my grandmas. we shall reunite soon, maybe?

Friday, May 20, 2011

egooo

a professor i had sent me this email and it was so perfectly worded, and i loved it. i think everyone should take a quick read and think about it for a day....

Consider the ego -
It is ego that divides us in all our relationships. Think of your own relationships with your family, spouse, children, parents, coworkers, etc. If there is a strain in the relationship, and you are honest enough to peer into the heart of the problem, you will discover ego. Ego is the notion that we are separate and different than others. Being different from others demands that we protect ourselves. In order to protect ourselves we adopt strategies like projecting a certain image, or attempting to control people and situations, or removing ourselves from others by judging and categorizing them as different, wrong, ugly, dumb, etc. In actuality all of these ego defensive strategies have one harmful side effect - they literally divide us from others.
-Brent Warnock



                                        ~


Isnt it just perfect. Guys, thats totally me sometimes. and its not that im actually thinking im better then someone but its the little thoughts in my head or little remarks i say day-to-day that i could totallllyyy work on. thats my goal for the next few days  is to try super hard to be much better. urgh what a breath of fresh air... goodnight for reals.xoxostevie

Thursday, May 19, 2011

pow and afp

okay, lets talk about People of Walmart and Awkward Famliy Photos. honestly two of my favorite websites for a good people watch from my room, and a good loud laugh. love it. these are some of my favorites lately... enjoyyyy


thong?

uhhmn,... what?

sure, cause thats normal... hunting gear and the shooting game. it only makes perfect sense


oh.my.gosh.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

good stuff

The good, simple stuff in life....

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6 Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Oreo Custard Concrete
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.

18. Holding a newborn baby.

19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.

20. Running through sprinklers.

21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss that meant something
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise
42. Getting out of bed every morning and
being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.


winked between the lines

andddd again with the universe. guys, i cant help but to get tinglyy and hapy about them when i receive them. seriously facebook message me and get the link to get them, theyre the best things ever!!!! they make me feel so refreshed about life, relationships with family, friends, co-workers, strangers, everything! arent our lives so blessed and full of happiness? a wish for this to you and yours.... enjoy the day xoxostevie


If I told you there have been no mistakes,
that I understand every decision you've ever made,
and that the challenges you've faced, you've faced
for everyone, would you listen?
If I told you that what you dream of, I dream of for you,
that the only things "meant to be" are what you decide
upon, and that all that stands between you and the life
of your dreams are the thoughts you choose
to think, would you try to understand?
And if I told you that you are never alone,
that there are angels who sing your name in praise,
and that I couldn't possibly be any more proud of you
than I already am, would you believe me?

Would you? Even if I pulled your leg, made you blush,
and winked between the lines?

Then I shall...
The Universe









Tuesday, May 17, 2011

btw

so im definantly not one of lady gagas monsters. and im not obsessed with her. and i dont have all of her cds and i dont want to be just like her...
BUT...
if youre trying to look me in the eye and tell me you dont LOVE Born This Way, then youre a crazy person. oohh dear that songs my jam. it seriously was made for me. lyrics and alll. ahhh listen, read, enjoy:) xoxostevie



It doesn't matter if you love him, or capital H-I-M
Just put your paws up
'cause you were Born This Way, Baby

My mama told me when I was young
We are all born superstars
She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on
In the glass of her boudoir
"There's nothing wrong with loving who you are"
She said, "'Cause he made you perfect, babe"
"So hold your head up girl and you'll go far,
Listen to me when I say..."
I'm beautiful in my way
'Cause God makes no mistakes
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this wayDon't hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you're set
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way

Oh there ain't no other way
Baby I was born this way
Baby I was born this way
Oh there ain't no other way
Baby I was born-
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born this way
Don't be a drag -Just be a queen
Don't be!
Give yourself prudence
And love your friends
Subway kid, rejoice your truth
In the religion of the insecure
I must be my self, respect my youth
A different lover is not a sin
Believe capital H-I-M (Hey hey hey)
I love my life I love this record and
Mi amore vole fe yah--->(love needs faith)
Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Whether you're broke or evergreen
You're black, white, beige, chola descent
You're Lebanese, you're orient
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied, or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today
'cause baby you were born this way

No matter gay, straight, or bi,
lesbian, transgendered life,
I'm on the right track baby,
I was born to survive.No matter black, white or beige
Chola or orient made,
I'm on the right track baby,
I was born to be brave. I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

YES!


The reason for all challenges, Stevie, is so that you can finally learn that none are bigger than you. None. Ever. You are destined for greatness, Stevie.

Winner,
The Universe



okay okay, im lame and always post things from the Universe... but i love them. im a firm believer that these come to me when i least expect but at the same time when i subconsciously need them most. i believe that God's out there, boppin around and always checkin up on me.. and quite frankly ive had an interesting past 5 months... and i know with 100% fact that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is real. SO REAL! ive experimented, tried new things, done stupid stuff the whole 9 yards... but i cannot deny that it has saved me more than once. God has made me handle things that i have struggled with times a billion, but he knew i could handle it. i know that because of the church, i wont ever have to fully know the word alone, feels like. ive never been so sure of anything in my life.



woah, did i just bear my testimony via blogger? welp, theres a first time for everything. that just happened and guess what? my crappy week just got a million times better! enjoy the day. xoxostevie

Friday, May 13, 2011

funk.

im in a mood. a mood that isnt so great to be in but im surprisingly okay with it. i feel like lately i want to leave. to where? who knows. but i just have the urge to leave by myself and not return for a while. i feel like i am not leaving anything behind. i mean, i would miss my family and a few friends but they shoul dbe here when i come back? hmm i dunno. i just feel weird. im not super content with anything im involved in or doing right now so its kind of weird... i miss emily. she always made me laugh. ugh this is weird, usually im the type of person who wants to go out and have a fun time with my friends but all i want to do tonight is sit at my house, by myself and watch movies. many of them, all night. you know what? i think i might. adios for now xoxostevie

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

why we love stevie

so the other day im getting off work and usually on my way home i will call my parents and let them know if im coming home, or going to hang out with friends or whatever, well this particular night (monday?) i called and my dad casually answers and tells me that they are out eating and i say uhhh everyone but me? and he says ... yeah sorry. ahhh i didnt like them for a minute. anyways i told my dad that the only way i would forgive them all is to write me a list of things they love about me... hahaha so this is what i fould last night hanging on the fridge.... hahahaha oh i love my family!!!

Monday, May 9, 2011

just today

how about just for today we all cut ourselves a little bit of slack, look around us, smell more flowers and hold more hands?

happy the-only-monday-may-9th-2011 we will ever get again in our lives. :) make it a good one today!

mudders day

mothers day was great. im not 100% finished with my present for my mom (its taking longer then expected) but im trying. work this week was insane and my feet are still hating me for their pain and suffering. but it all is over now and back to a normal schedule. while at work on saturday i made my mother this arrangement and she loved it! so it was a pre-mothers day gift from myself and kind of the father.


the actual day went well too! we hung out with the family and my grandpa came home from the hospital to be with us for a few hours but had to go back, bummer! but good news, i got a new job! well an additional job. i know i know i was going to take a break for the summer... hahah but you know me, i have to stay busssy!!! but i am going to be a receptionist for a hair salon called Kami Hair. its going to be sweet im excited to start! anyways, im off to slumber, nighty nighttt!

Friday, May 6, 2011

about me!

Get to know me in 50 questions. I don’t blog about anything good I feel like. Its always weird things that people I'm sure don’t even read, so I was thinking there would be no new post tonight and then I read this on a girl I follows blog and thought this is something that I will enjoy. And that’s all that matters! Read until you’re bored friends!!!

What was your favorite food when you were a child? Loved me some spaghetti!
What’s the #1 most played song on your iPod? I don’t even know, lemme look realll quick…  it’s a tie between
-
Cat Like Theif
-Think Twice
-Missed The Boat
What is one of your favorite quotes? You know I love quotes, so this will be a tough one… ill just say the first ones that come to mind …
-Don't spend time beating on a wall, hoping to transform it into a door
-Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.
-Nothing is as far away as a minute ago
-Life isn’t fair, but its good

What’s your favorite indoor/outdoor activity? Indoor-laughing with friends or cooking/eating and outdoor- camping, riding, hiking etc.
What chore do you absolutely hate doing? Urghhhh probably making my bed
What is your favorite form of exercise? I like exercise that isn’t really exercise. Like roller blading, bike riding, swimming, hiking the fun stuff!!!
What is your favorite time of day/day of the week/month of the year? favorite time of day- when I'm done for the day will work, school and everything! day of the week-I love the feeling of Fridays and Sundays. month of the year-September.
What’s your least favorite mode of transportation? I hate being in a car, plane anything for more then 4 hours. haha
What is your favorite body part? On my self of someone else? I always notice peoples hair I guess! ahahah
What sound do you love? Laughing!


What if questions...

If you could throw any kind of party, what would it be like and what would it be for? I would love to be able to make all of the friends I have and have had in the past to get together and just hang out. Foods a must, old-new tunes and just to be able to talk to everyone without judgment to what we were or anything like that! Like we would be just happy to see each other again! That’s what I'm hoping my high school reunions are like…  
If you could paint a picture of any scenery you’ve seen before, what would you paint? Ugrhhh my old house. Everything about it I loved. I didn’t realize how much I loved it until we moved. I love our new house a ton! But I grew up in that old house so its just all the memories and everything that were made their mean so much!
If you could choose to stay a certain age forever, what age would it be? Hmmm. Like the girl before me, she said 28. I think that it’s a good age because youre settling down and it seems like an age people are starting to see their hard word pay off and they’re happy with who they are.
If you knew the world was ending in 2012, what would you do differently? Be with my family and close friends. Just enjoy the life I live even more then I do now.
If you could choose anyone, who would you pick as your mentor? That’s so hard… there are so many people who have motivated me to be better each day but I most likely would choose my mother. Shes so helpful and loving. I hope I'm awesome like she is one day.

If you could witness any event past, present or future, what would it be?
I wish I would have made even better girl friends then I did. I wish I had a close group of girlfriends we did everything with. I never really had a bunch it was always 2 or 3.
If you could learn to do anything, what would it be? Be a good cook… yikes its gonna take a minute or twelve years at the rate I'm going
If you had to work on only one project for the next year, what would it be? Manage my money even better.
If you were immortal for a day, what would you do? Ahh I don’t even know. Good question…
If you had to change your first name, what would you change it to? Stone
If you could meet anyone, living or dead, who would you meet? Ashton Kutcher or Johnny Depp.. ahh I would be on cloud nine!!!
If you won the lottery, what is the first thing you would do? Buy a house or a car. And then invest the rest maybe.
If you were reincarnated as an animal/drink/ice cream flavor, what would it be? elephant, water, and cake batter!!
If you could know the answer to any question, besides “What is the meaning of life?”, what would it be? Why cant things always be fair?
If you could be any fictional character, who would you choose? Ariel (Little Mermaid)
Personal Questions

Which celebrity do you get mistaken for? I don’t hear it as much anymore but I got that girl from Saved By The Bell (Tiffani-AmberThiessena)i dont see it at all but whatever!
What do you want to be when you grow up? Cosmetologist, Esthetician, good Mum and excellent Wife!
When you have 30 minutes of free-time, how do you pass the time? Sleeping, over at Cades, laying on my bed, looking for jewelry online, reading.
What would you name the autobiography of your life? Live and Let Live
What songs are included on the soundtrack to your life? I love the song
The Good Stuff by Kenny Chesney!
Personal History Questions


Have you ever had something happen to you that you thought was bad but it turned out to be for the best? Holy cow, I cannot even begin to tell you how I keep having to remind myself that in the end of the messes I get into or sadness that happens, I am ALWAYS happier after! Unanswered prayers are so good for everyone!
What was one of the best parties you’ve ever been to? The Cinco de Mayo party I threw last year was pretttty sweet! I also loved my graduation party my mother did for me!
J
What was the last movie, TV show or book that made you cry or tear up? Haha Lost…
What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done? Finding out who my true friends are and realizing that MY habits were  some of the problem in a lot of struggles I have had in life.
What was the last experience that made you a stronger person? This last school year. Working and going to school full time has been really hard for me but I'm super glad ive been able to do it and understand a little bit about what hard work really is.
What did you do growing up that got you into trouble? Lying. Being too loud. Standing up for myself when I could have let things go. Not taking things seriously.
When was the last time you had an amazing meal? Tucci’s the other night was super good!!
What’s the best/worst gift you’ve ever given/received? best gift-my graduation present worst gift-a sweatshirt I got in 8th grade
What do you miss most about being a kid? no responsibilities and just seeing the happy in everything without having to think about it!
What is your first memory of being really excited? I loved running in the sprinklers or going to school!
What was the first thing you bought with your own money? no clue!
When was the last time you were nervous? I get nervous before I pay my bills. I always think shiz I'm gonna run out of money before I'm done payin  it all!!!
What is something you learned in the last week? Hard work pays off eventually.
What story does your family always tell about you? They made the rule “no singing at the table while people are  eating” because of me.
At what age did you become an adult? I still don’t feel like a full human adult.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

good

today has been a good one so far. i work over 40 hours this week and i havent complained yet. this is good news. everyone hurry get your Mothers Day gift from me at the Flower Patch and make her smile with some pretttty flowers! these ones are my favorites!!!!...


 arent they great, i love flowers!!! but getting a mothers day gift and andddd and youll get to see me! what a great combo! anyways, so yeah thats all ive got for today, also the song of the day for me is Trying To Find A Balance. its great, you all shall induldge! have a good Thursday everybody :)


remixx

call me lazy. its okay, but the email from the universe today was brilliant!!! and now i shall share... goonight xoxo.


It's like every single life is being played out inside its own tiny, little bubble, Stevie. Floating effortlessly in the wind, alongside billions and billions of other bubbles.

Yet interestingly enough, while it's quite easy to peer inside other bubbles and notice what is or is not happening there, what they do and do not have, comparing to the point of envy or gloating, it's equally easy to notice, though so few do, that all of the bubbles are floating home, where everyone is equally worthy, important, and celebrated.

xxoo,
The Universe


P.S. I like that one, Stevie. And I love you.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

universe

so i cant remember if i have blogged about this before but i get emails monday and friday from the universe. it sounds weird but its actuallly really cool! if you go to this website you sign up, it asks you a few questions and you decide when you want them and what your life goals are, your strengths and weaknesses and then it personalizes them for you. some of my friends have done it and we have gotten some of the same ones sent to us but i have loved getting them! i get them mondays to start my day and week off right and then fridays for a good weekend. i love getting them! this is one i got last week that i really liked and i hope you all enjoy! happy 1st week of May everybody!



There is always something, Stevie, to be happy about. Truly happy.
And if you have the audacity to find it and the courage to make it your focus, in spite of the countless temptations to do otherwise, you will have learned well, your life will be transformed, and all things will be added unto you. Trust me, Stevie, I have connections.

"End" game,
The Universe