solitary

i feel so alone, out of place, forlorn, unaccompanied, by myself, without help, deserted, isolated, lonely, solitary... need i say more? urgh. i feel so helpless. i dont know what this feeling is that has come over me but i would love it it came to a rapid end. i feel like i dont belong anywhere or i dont mean anything right now. i dont know why i feel like this because saying these things makes me feel all depress-ish but URGH I CANT HIDE HOW IM FEELING! especially when i feel like its literally taking over! i feel like something good is going to happen soon but i dont know how i am going to get there and i feel as if the changes that will soon be happening in my life will help me get there but i feel like i am leaving the best friends i have behind. i know that this must needed change will be the best thing to happen to me but i dont know if i want to do thig alone... ahhh hopefully this weekend brings me out of this slump and it will give me much needed answers for tedious questions! wish me luck, szh