eggggggs!!!

 my all-time FAVORITE restaurant! i am going there with my friend Khylee today, and i couldnt be more excited. its my go-to for brunch/breakfast food. if anyone says "hey lets go to breakfast" i say EGGS IN THE CITY!!!! it has never failed me, and so therefore i am happy to go there time and time again. i usually get the Mexican or Greek skillets, and it is fantastic! ahhh i am so excited. and then after that i have school and then my cutting technique class after that. Once im finished with that, cade and i are going on a date to a place we both have never been to, called the the copper onion. i am so excited because we both have hear raveeee reviews on how fantastic this place is... so i couldn't be more thrilled to go there with my dearest cadence.
a few days ago i got a letter from matthew and i couldn't believe how happy i was to receive a letter from him! hes in the mtc, and he says hes happy he went but the mtc kind of sucks.... urgh. i dont blame him though, doing church everyday wouldn't be the funnest thing everyday but i am happy hes doing okay!
a friend of mine has also recently decided to get baptized. his names derek and im happy for him. he invited me to go to one of the missionary discussions with him and it was a cool experience to see derek connecting with what they were teaching. it also was cool to look at the missionaries and realize, wow, that's what cades going to be doing. it was kind of funny! after derek and i went over to our friend aubrees house for her surprise party thing... because she also is going on a mission. (do you not see how missions are consuming my life now?!?!)
after that cade came to pick me up and we were going to make this thing on pinterest we thought looked really good, but then we couldnt find the recipe cause his computers lame and so we ended up talking.... and then falling asleep on the ground. wow we are super popular and really lively people. hahahah anyways, we will redeem ourselves tonight with yummy food all around! have a good weekend bloggers. xoxoxstevie

mr merica

missionary. urgh, the word still sits weird in my mouth. i love it, i know there's no where else in the whole would that i would rather him be then serving a mission, its just hard to not be selfish and want him to stay and continue to have fabulous adventures with me. while he prepares to leave, it has put a lot of things into perspective for us. people ask us funny, yet normal questions like... are you waiting? do you want her to wait for you? are you guys going to get married blah blah blah.

no im not necessarily waiting for him... im going to date. 

he wants me to enjoy my two years as well as his.

and marriage, were 20.... why would we even think of such things?!

bottom line, i love him. a ton. someone totally knew what they were doing when they made that kid.... the perfect fit for me. he gets me like no body else ever has. we both enjoy little things. thats the perfect word to describe us... enjoy. its not some crazy, mad rush of passion. it never has been. we have always been just fact, i love him,he loves me, we love each others company and what we both are about with and without each other. theres no room for the other fluff. sure, he makes me happy, makes me want to be a better person everyday. makes me want to be temple worthy, makes me want to embrace every moment, makes me want to be honest, makes me want to just be anything that i feel. he treats me like no body has ever treated me before. he's the best. one of my favorite memories with him is we were driving, (dont remember where, probably somewhere lame like state street haha) and a song came on, (don't remember what one) and it felt like we were in a music video. like everything could just stop and stay still forever and it wouldn't even matter. and i just looked at him driving, i dont know what he was thinking, but i just looked over and said, "this moment is perfect, i am so content with just being alive right now and i could relive the simplicity of this moment over and over again forever." ill never forget his face, he looked at me, smiled, reached for my hand and we went on driving. life is so awesome. i know i'm going to ramble on about him for the next little while, and who knows however long after that... even though i dont know what the next journey brings us, i just know that i wouldnt want to have been through the past few years without him xoxo

this isnt like "our song" or anything creepy like that, this is just a mutual favorite song as of lately. its an oldie, but goodie and its a good mood song for driving, starting your day, ending it, and anything that may fall inbetween :)

manifestation.

Like I have said in previous posts, im not one for ”resolutions.” People forget them, push them aside, decide they’re too hard or difficult and live like the same way. I, for a while have been reading many books on positive thinking to sum it up. Ive read and watched movies on The Secret, read many Toltec Philosophy books and so on… Although I do believe that there is power in positive thinking, I also am LDS, and believe that through God, these things are possible, not just me aimlessly hoping for things and putting no work into it. However, some of their ideas in the books and movies that I have watched, have had interesting tatics on how to keep the dreams, wants, and desires alive. Some recommend making a Dream Board, some have you list what you want and then write and such inside of you for why you really want these things and so forth… I may try those one day but for me, I decided to make a list for things that I want to Manifest in my life.

The definition of manifest is…

 1-clear or obvious the the eye or mind

 2-display or show (a quality or feeling) by ones acts or appearance

Interesting.  So I write down a list of things that I want to be better at, continue to do, and also a version of a short-term “bucket list”. There are so many things that I see people doing or things that I randomly think of and I think, dang. If only I could do that, Uh… HELLO!!!! Why cant i?!? so I made this list of things I want to do. It has already helped me a lot. I have, in some way already accoplished some of the things on this list. Example, I deleted my facebook (… a month ago maybe?) because it isn’t productive and it takes away from being in the moment. And so on and so forth. I am going to write in my journal of thee experiences, blog about them, and also put this list where I can see it every day and be reminded of what is important to me, and who knows, maybe I will add to it as time goes on! Happy Sunday xoxo

thoughts?

"no man knows how bad he is till he has tried very hard to be good.

 a silly idea is current that good people do not know what temptation means, 

this is an obvious lie. 

only those who try to resist temptation know how strong it is.

 after all, you find out the strength of the German army

 by fighting against it, not by giving in.

 you find out the strength of a wind 

by trying to walk against it, not by lying down. 

a man who gives in to temptation after five minutes,

 simply does not know what it would have been like an hour later.

 that is why bad people, in one sense, know very little about badness.

 they have lived a sheltered life by always giving in. 

we never find out the strength of the evil impulse inside us until we try to fight it"

interesting. i dont know if i necessarily believe in this quote but i certainly found it interesting.... my thoughts about this have always been, there is not testimony without a test. how do you know that something feels right, if you have felt something wrong before? how do you know happiness if you have never been sad. how can you call yourself grateful, if you feel you have lived without. this quote makes sense to me though, what are your thoughts on it? i would be interested to know!

ode to mattchu

I knew this day had to come eventually. my two best friends are leaving within one month of each other, crazy! Matthew bauer,  so weird! When I first met this kid, it was in jr high with my friend Jordan Jenkins. I didn’t think much of it, I knew who he was in high school, I would see him around but never really got to know him. It wasn’t until I started hanging out with cade and paul, that I really did begin to get to know him. SO FUNNY! Seriously, we could laugh about anything, and it was always a good time. We all lived in the same neighborhood and we were in the same ward together. We were doing things we shouldn’t have been doing,  and we definitely weren’t being any sort of help to each other, but then again, why would we be? We thought we were all having the times of our lives. No cares in the world…  well,  then Matt moved out with our friend Berrett and his cousin. We still saw him a lot because we went over to the apartment often… well, when cade decided to go on a mission, I can’t lie I was kind of bugged. Why would he want to stop having fun and hanging out with all of our friends for a weird thing like church. Sure, I believed it all was true but I didn’t find it necessary to stop our current lifestyle. We weren’t doing anything that crazy… anyways I slowly came around and realized that the life I was living, wasn’t for me either so we slowly distanced ourselves from those situations. It was really good because I saw an instant change in my life. I was more productive, more motivated, genuinely happier, and at that moment, I knew I had made the right decision, and cade felt the same. Well, it was great during the week, but when the weekend would roll around, everyone of our usual friends, would all go to Matt and Berretts to hang out. Cade and I would go once every month or so, but not even that usually. We just got to the point when it wasn’t fun watching the same people, do the same things and act the same way. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done, to stop hanging out with the people I became so close with.  It wasn’t because they weren’t awesome people, because they were. It was just hard for cade and I to keep saying no, and not feeling on the same level as everyone else. It was really hard because they were my best friends for so long, but we had to give it up. Well, a few months went by and then matt told us he moved out. HUGE SHOCKER!!! And from that point on, he never looked back. He stopped giving into the temptations and got ready to serve an lds mission. I couldn’t believe it. I was sooooo ecstatic! Well, the rest is history! From that moment on, we were inseparable. We did everything together. And it wasn’t even like it was cade and I and then the 3^rd wheel matt, it was just like we all three were best friends. We talked about everything together, life, family, friends, future hopes and dreams, jobs, frustrations, happiest moments in our life…. Everything. We became each others life lines. If any of us ever thought of giving up, there were always two people helping them back out of the funk that they were in. we laughed together, cried together, yelled at each other… the whole thing. We all couldn’t believe that in a few short months, all of us would be separated, but then again not really. We all were stronger people. We knew that in 2 years, we would all be back to hanging out and being best friends all over again. on friday night, the celebrations began! we went to dinner at (you all know this) but my favorite Bonsai! matt hasnt been there and he was sick of all of us talking about how delicious it was so he said that was the one thing he wanted to do before he left! haha Matt had his farewell talk on sunday and did amazing. Looking back one year ago, he is a changed man, and I can only imagine what the next two will do for him. We hung out at his house after with some of our friends and talked, he came and hung out with us Monday night, and then Tuesday afternoon, matt and I went to mcdonalds for our last ice cream sundae,  and mcdouble with big mac sauce. It was so nice to be able to hang out and talk once again but it was beginning to sink in that we only had a few hours left. He dropped me off and asked if cade and I would come to his setting apart that night, Of course we said yes. Matt bore his testimony and I felt the spirit so strongly. At the end, he turned to cade and I and told us, that he knew he wouldn’t have been able to go on a mission if it wasn’t for us two. Cade and I were already bawling, so you can imagine what happened after he said that. Right after he bore his testimony he got up to get set apart, his sister and mom said quick, you have to hug stevie. Matt and I just looked at each other and started cryin again. We both hugged and I  knew I was having to say goodbye to my best friend. After we went to his house with paul, maddi, mikey and parker and just hung out and spent the last few hours we could with him. We finally left and that was it. I texted him right when I got home and sent him my testimony.  We talked back and forth for a minute but then stopped. I thought that was going to be the last time we talked until we wrote letters. He then texted me out of the blue while i was at work…

Matt-hey, I love you and thanks for being the best friend ever.

Me-I love you too matt, don’t forget it!

Matt-I couldn’t forget about you

Me-stop this nonsense, youre making me cry at work!

Matt-im sorry L I had to say it though

Me- love ya to meridia and back!

Matt-hahahhaha thanks, youre the best

Me-no, im not!

Matt-haha, but I love you, im about to get dropped off. Write to me and pray for me.

Me-I will matt, love you. 

Matt-thanks, see you in 2.

Uh, yeah I was crying at work. It just hit me again, that he was going to be gone forever. No more late night chats, no more temple together, no more rancheritos, no more funny texts, no more tanning buddies, no more mcdonalds, no more shopping, not for 2 years. I am so happy and grateful that hes going on a mission though, matt has a way about him that will make everyone feel special. He will do so well and I am so excited to hear about his successes!  Urgh, enough of this nonsense… one down, one to go, wish me luck! J

cade, myself, matt, paul and maddi at bonsai

berrett, cade, me, matt, maddi and paul at matts house after his farewell talk on sunday

at his setting apart. this was after we all were crying so all of our eyes look a little red and squinty

see you in two matt!!!!!!!

interesting.

this is so good. i really like the way he says this! 

and the news is...

McAllen Texas Mission. 
Spanish Speaking
leaves.... February 15th 2011.


WHAHOO!!! ive never had so many emotions run through my body at one time. there was excitement, saddness, nervous... EVERYTHING! elder merica, i like it :) at first i was sad because he left so soon, but the sooner he leaves, the sooner he will return! the day he opened it was december 27th, and he was sooooo sick. he has been snowboarding earlier and got the flu in the middle of a run! so when he opened it i couldnt tell if he was happy about it or not, he opened it and then went straight to bed (hense no pictures)...the next day he felt a million times better and was soooo excited. we were both reading through all of the things he needed to get, reading the information about his mission presidents, everything! i am so proud andhappy for him! the next 2 years are going to be tough, but theres no where on earth i would rather him be, then on this mission!!!!
my family through a party for him to celebrate... all mexican food, virgin margaritas, the whole thing with decorations and what not. mother loves throwing parties!!! it was fun my whole family was there, elys girlfriend, and our best friend matt came and celebrated his awesome occasion!!!


let the countdown begin.....

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chirstmasssss

Christmas is always a special one here at the hansgen residence! we always are happy, baking random things, finding the perfect gift, wrapping it, opening them and spending time with the people we love the most. this year i did the 12 days of christmas for cade, and he loved it! i was having such a hard time figuring out something to get him. he put in his mission papers a few weeks prior and at the time we had no clue where he was going or when he was going to be leaving. so i didnt want to get him anything that would just seem to go to waste, so i did the 12 days for him and it turned out great! here is the list of things i got him....
1-blanket. this was mainly for me because i hate all the blankets he has at his house
2-posters. the kid loves posters as well as decor for his walls at home. i got him a led zepplin one and a sweeeeet bob marley one.
3- i got three of my favorite memories of us, got a picture from each one, and wrote why i loved each one so much.
4- shirts-cause i love buying him cute clothes
5-arizona teas, cause hes in love
6-a mini six pack of soda for lunches at work and such
7-ties- for the mission. he always makes comments about how all his ties are the same so i got him some different ones!
8-pairs of church socks- one in every color possible
9-we were supposed to go on a date at 9:00, but then i got too excited so we did it at like 5...for our date we made a sweet gingerbread house!!!
10-we both have an obseshhh with incense  so i bought him 10 things of them and a sweet holder.
11-i wrote him a huge long letter about the 11 reasons why i love him
12-he was going to star valley so i made him 12 cookies to take down there... other then it was more like 12x10.... ahhahah thats okay right?

anyways, nothing big but it was so fun sneaking them into his house everyday, so that usually when he came home, there was a surprise waiting for him :) as for me, my christmas was awesome! i got a laptop!!!! i wanted one so bad but i was almost positive i wasnt going to get it! such a good surprise! everyone in my family loved my gifts, what else is new though right?! anyways, it was such a good and happy time for me :) i hope everyone else's was awesome as well!!!! merry merry xoxoxstevie

we get pj's every christmas eve, this year they were legit long johns. ive never been more happy in my life!

best dog in the world!!!!

making some sweet tunes with my gramps christmas days visit!

me, trying so hard to talk father into letting me get a puppy of my own.... fail.

anyone needing an extra boost?

the ultimate 12 days of christmas thank you emma russell!!!

questionair

Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with?my dearest erica at school! we always have sensational talks about life and what not...

Has anyone said they loved you today? multiple people actually. mother, ely kenz, erica and cadence

Is someone on your mind right now? my brother whos just creepin on me from the other room being a weirdy.

Last person's bed you were on other than yours? mother and fathers. i sluffed church to read... fail.

If you had to get another piercing (not ears) what would you get? nose, call me a weirdo but i think they are gorg!!! i dont know if i could exactly pull it off with my strange honker but i like to think i would look fantastic.

Do you care if people smoke around you? meh, not really. its just whatever. my close family members smoke and i dont seem to mind most of the time. if it starts getting to me i either tough it out because we're in good convo or just slide on out of the premises. 

Have you ever been really good friends with someone, but now you're just friends? hasnt everyone? i had friends in high school that i thought i would never dream to lose contact with and even just being out for two years i rarely talk to and when i do bump into them, its like we are meeting for te first time. i think im in an odd stage in my life when im finally being shown into the real world where you dont just get to hang out with friends all the time. i look at my parents and they have 6 friends MAYBE not even that, that they keep in on-and-off contact with. i think i know the friends i will carry on with me and thats that. wow, that was a rant.

What's your favorite color? i love the colors grey and black, people say that those arent colors but boo to them. i love the color peach though!!!

Who did you last call on the phone? ely

What was the last thing you drank? water. its usually a rare occasion that i drink anything but water. 

What was the last song you heard? young blood by the naked and famous... PLEASE listen! its the best!!!!!

Who was the last person that made you cry? just myself. sometime life can get so frustrating. dont you ever feel that way? sometimes i feel like im just being swallowed in my stupid choices or just different circumstances and i tend to think sometimes "okay, seriously. this. is. not. FAIR!!!!" but then again there's always going to be someone better and always someone worse off then you are. i always try to remember that. i got my email from the universe today and it was seriously EXACTLY  what i needed to hear....

Ever wish for do-over days, Stevie?
 You know, hit the reset button and give'er another shot?

Cool.... Will today work!?Stevie, they're all do-over days, you're a forever being, and whatever you once dreamed of for yourself, I still dream of for you.

It's never too late, 

The Universe

anyway

"People are often unreasonable and self-centered.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you.
Be honest anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be good enough.
Do good anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God.
It never was between you and them anyway."

whale v dolphin

(via honey-and-bee)


A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”
The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way:
“Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness. They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia. They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires. Mermaids do not exist. But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish? They would have no sex life and could not bear children. Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad. And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side? Without a doubt, I’d rather be a whale."

kjashdkfjhsad

What time did you go to sleep last night? hmm... like 12ish!?

Do you enjoy long car rides? blah. no. i dont like being in a car, plane, anything smallish for more then about 3 hours. after that i have to mentally talk myself out of being a stress ball. 

Are you listening to anything right now? just me type type typinnn away

Has a rumor been spread about you? Yeah. Whatevsss

Do you like funny or serious people better? funny, cause its way more fun butt I like people who know when its time to be serious about things yanno!?

Who was the last male you talked to? My boss sterling

Who is someone that can always make you laugh? Cadence, carter, berrett, matt, maddi

What were you doing at 10am this morning? working

What were you doing an hour ago?watching p.s. i love you.

Do you plan on moving within the next year? Yessss J more details so soon come in due time.

Are you wearing anything on your feet? My favorite blowfish boots actually.

What are you looking forward to in the next 3 months? My birthday! Christmas! Being done with school  yeayyayyayya!

Do you remember your dreams? Sometimes I write them down right when I wake up so I can remember to look them up online and interprate wqhat they mean but when I get around to doing it whatever I wrote down usually doesn’t make any sense so I say screw it! hahaha

Where did your last hug take place? on my front porch last night

Have you been to a baby shower? Yeah yeah for some reason I think they’re awkward.

What cell phone company do you use? verizon.

Do you watch the Super Bowl? yeeees!

What about World Cup? Only cause cadence does.

Do you sleep with a teddy bear? hahah no, I'm not five.

What is the last movie you watched? What happens in vegas. What else is new though right!? ahhaha

What movie do you think everyone should watch? Ah to be a better person and put things into perspective I think the movie Blow is realllllly good. Also boy in the striped pajamas and Up. I always like movies with good messages.

What is your middle name? zel

Do you have your future children's names picked out? who yeeeeepp! All 6 of them good grief

What color is your mailbox? Fade-ish black

Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home? YES! Ah so weird, ive never noticed that before.

What brand is your computer printer? epson.

How many cars can fit in your driveway? Technically 2 but my dad has so much ish that we can only fit one

Who was your Kindergarden teacher? Mrs Bailey.

do what you do

extremely interesting

how interesting is that?! next time youre wallowing in self pity just remember that your sadness and those types of feelings are self-inflicted and you can either make yourself sad about it or, you can be strong and get over whatever has happened. easier said then done but i think i will always try and remember this.... wish me luck... happy friday everybody!

questionzzz

Write about a time when you tried to help and ended up making things worse: hahaha probably everyday? no just kidding i think this happens to everyone more often then we think actually!  i dont think anybody ever thinks "oh man, im going to do this for someone and then they are going to be screwed after" no no no. we always think that the words we say will help as well as actions, advice, etc. but im sure if things dont turn out the way the person would have hoped, we can get blamed for some things yanno?

Did you ever break an important promise: yes

Write about picking apples, berries, or other fruit or vegetables: we had an apple tree at my old house and my parents would have ely, sam and i pick up the apples that had fallen.... it seemed like it was THE WORST but in all actuality it only took about an hour (if that) hahaha

Write about being a misfit: i think from the end of my 8th grade year through the middle of my 9th grade year i just never really knew where i fit in... i  was sick of my old friends but also felt like groups were complete so i didnt ever go out with any other people... it wasnt until taylor buck and i became best friends where i started to kind of feel like i was happy with the turn my life had taken.



Describe a car or bicycle accident you were in: when i was a jr in high school the drill girls had a group date and it was katie, connor, dani, russel, sean and myself and we were driving and long story short we ran into a telephone pole, and a transmitter box and it blew up underneath of us. not good at all. 

Write about being friends with your brother/sisters: i love my brothers. they truly are the best ever. sam and i are closer just because we have similar interests and ely can be really hard to get along with just because hes so temperamental. but when ely wants to talk we can be super close as well. we all get so excited for each other when we succeed in something we love and we also push each other to be better. sometimes we argue, but dont all siblings?!

Write about wearing high heels or a necktie for the first time: ive yet to wear a necktie.... but high heels and i have a love-hate relationship. i love them! they are adorable on other people and i have some cute heels that would seriously make my outfits that much better... but im not that girl. i dont know why whenever i wear them out and about i feel as if i am trying too hard. its not like they hurt my feet or anything at all but i just dont get that dolled up to wear heels would be acceptable. my mother always comes home with super cute heels that are amazingly adorable but they sadly just sit in my closet :( also i dont go out to places where i need to be that fancy.... i dunno its just a weird thing for me i guess. one day, i hope i grow out of it!

describe

bored and dont know what to blog about. im having a weird but good day and am feeling a mixture of emotions. school ending, cade leaving, a possible AWESOME experience literally thrown at me (more to come when more finalized later)...so im answering questions. enjoy or hate.


 Describe a day at the mall: urgh. hell. seriously i am not a fan of going to the mall and meandering around. its a very RARE occasion when i wanna juts hang out at that place. it stresses me out. now, describe a day at nordstroms.... completely different story. i never leave empty handed... ever. and i actually went there today. bought three items that will be nice additions to my already fabbulous wardrobe

Describe your dream room: welll i guess it depends on what we are talking about here. bedroom? kitchen? bathroom? living room? i dont want to go through and name off what would make each of those rooms ideal so i will name off some things like i would like as a general rule for all of the above.  clean. tidy. homey-i want it to be welcoming to all. earthy idk why i just love earth tones in houses. im not a huge fan of all white and black. and i also want to be able to feel like i can relax in any room.  


Describe a day at the beach: fabulous and much needed. thats what one of my favorite things about lake powell was. we would wake up, pack a ton of food and just go bum it on the beach and hung out. theres just something fun, lighthearted and carefree about beaches and good company.


Describe a practical joke you played on a friend/family member: hahahahahahhahaha honestly too many to name. pranking was our middle name in high school and we loved it!!!! one that always comes to mind is when scott, kamron, lex and nikkie and i went and toilet paperd tayvia cary's car and then to her house..... got caught.... police came.... and we had to clean it up. honestly HILARIOUS!!!!!!!! omg i feel bad that we did it because ime sure she thought/thinks that we all hated her. we totally didnt it just happened that way and it was all too much fun!

Describe an unforgettable experience: wow toughie. i think the most unforgettable experience that i have ever had is when i finally found out what being a true friend meant. its such a hard thing to teach someone what that is and to also understand it yourself. i have been "friends" with people for 6+ years and am finally realizing that they would throw me under the bus to save themselves. it totally sucks. but i think i finally realize that i would rather have 5 friends i can count on every second of everyday without having to talk to them constantly... then have 200 friends that wouldn't care if i was there or not. i think that everyone learns that lesson eventually and i am glad im finally starting to realize those types of things.

suggestions for successsssss

happy way

sometimes the hard was is really the easy way, and the slow way is really the quick way...
yet, sometimes surprises may remain forever unknown when one waits...and waits...for the quick  and easy way to manifest.

choose the "happy way," and time wont matter.
-the universe

the whale

 If you read a recent front page story of the San Francisco Chronicle, you would have read about a female humpback whale who had become entangled in a spider web of crab traps and lines. She was weighted down by hundreds of pounds of traps that caused her to struggle to stay afloat. She also had hundreds of yards of line rope wrapped around her body, her tail, her torso, a line tugging in her mouth. A fisherman spotted her just east of the Farallon Islands (outside the Golden Gate) and radioed an environmental group for help. Within a few hours, the rescue team arrived and determined that she was so bad off, the only way to save her was to dive in and untangle her. They worked for hours with curved knives and eventually freed her. When she was free, the divers say she swam in what seemed like joyous circles. She then came back to each and every diver, one at a time, and nudged them, pushed them gently around as she was thanking them. Some said it was the most incredibly beautiful experience of their lives. The guy who cut the rope out of her mouth said her eyes were following him the whole time, and he will never be the same.

lovely

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east of eden

"And this I believe: that the free, exploring mind of the individual human is the most valuable thing in the world. And this I would fight for: the freedom of the mind to take any direction it wishes, undirected. And this I must fight against: any idea, religion, or government which limits or destroys the individual."

fabulous thoughts from the universe

ironically, those who label others as selfish are actually concerned with their own well-being.
This is good for a number of reasons, including learning the virtue of it. Besides, depending upon others to live "unselfishly" is still depending upon others

-the universe

niffty isn't it? how in life you don't even have to know how you got where you are, in order to get where you want to go. and then, well live your little heart out...

think, think, and let go---

-the universe

powelllalaaa

FA LA LA LA LA-LA LA LA LA! lake powellll, its here. finally here. so excited. fun times to be had and spent and shared with friends, new people, music, lake, warmth, sun. YES! im there. so there! i still have lots to be getting off and doing but i cant stop just being excited. there i said. it. whahooo! these are all pictures from page arizona that i will be full on seeing with my two eyeballies. yayaya

relate

Can you relate? 
You sit in your towel after a shower because you're too lazy to get dressed. You and your best friend can say one word, and crack up. You hate when one string of your hoodie is longer than the other. You hate it when people think you like someone when you clearly don't. You hate it when your favorite song comes on, as you pull into the driveway. You feel like if you turn on the lights, you will be safe from anything. You push those little buttons on the lids of fast-food drinks. You laugh until people get hurt, then stop when you realize it's serious. You hate it when parents get serious about something funny you tell them. You hate when you tell a guy to shut up and they copy you in a higher voice. You pretend to sleep when your parents come in. You text the person next to you things that you can't say out loud. You hate when people in front of you walk really slow and you can't get past them. You're always tired no matter how much sleep you get. You stop the microwave before it hits 00:00 to avoid hearing the beeps. You use the "sup" head nod. You just did the nod after you read it. You hate when you are mad at someone and they make you laugh. You check the fridge every ten seconds to see if food magicallyappeared

little pick-me-ups

everyone gets into that rut in a week when you think, WHEN WILL THIS EVER BE OVER? this week has been short until today and it just seems to be dragging. here are some funny things for those who needs a good smile, laugh, chuckle, what have you :)

seriously makes me laugh everytime i see this!!!

my brother ely and i are going to try and make these :)

creep-radiohead.... get it?

uhmmm, missed this infomercial.

...okay

silly

now, i think everyone who reads this blog knows me personally. if not, thats okay! but most of you probably know i enjoy working out on occasion. not something i do religiously. i would like to get into the habit but when it comes right down to it. i dont want to. because i would rather snack, hang out with friends, eat different places, laugh, sit, lounge, and sleep... the list could go on for daysss. but anyways i have been eating smaller portions and watching when i eat and i have actually lost some weight (yahoo) and its been swell. i also have been trying to prioritize what i do during the day so i keep myself at a steady level of busy and not be super lazy or super craziness running around bidness. i think thats a big part of just being healthy with yourself... just being happy with what you are doing during the day has had a huge impact on my body, mind, energy, thoughts etc.... i love being modivated. whether its s seminar, quotes, someone to look up to etc.  these are different pictures i have found that modivate me and also just give me a good laugh!!.... enjoy :) 

funny and modivating in a funny/serious kind of way... 

this has nothing to do with anything but i still found it applicable because shaving is something done with your legs and legs are apart of your body therefore it can be tied in... hahahaha

extremely helpful for myself. whenever im crazing something i pull this up and it has helped me a ton!!!

it makes me feel selfish for wanting a day of... but not bad enough to take a full week off for lake powell.. ehem.

this quote makes me run at least one more lap, a few strides faster, with my heart smiling just a wee bit.... :)

loving love

death??!

no pictures or anything for a skim with this post. i promise, if youll read this whole thing... youll love it. funny stories... funny stories all around. my life has been a serious joke lately. not a joke as in youre pathetic... joke as in serious, pure, humor. lets just start with this story first off..

okay so everyone knows i drive a honda civic hybrid, her names suzyq and shes been a great pal to have around. little brother ely has baseball all day everyday, but our parents have always taught us that working for something never hurt anyone so on the days ely doesnt have baseball untilo later in the day he goes and works at my uncles golf course, fox hollow. since he has weird hours he just would go down late the night before work and stay with my grandma and grandpa, wake up and work from like 4am to 12ish mowing greens and such. since my car got the better end of the stick as far as gas mileage goes i let him take my car down there. not an issue right?

nope, theres more...

so with me being the smart person i am, i took a summer class. i took a break from hair school (probably mentioned that?) and so i just am in "real" school working towards my associates. well im not stupid, so i knew i had to take an elective this year because lets be real... stevie? summer school? english or math? thats a fat NOPE! so i took a jewelry class (i dont even want to go into the hilariousness of this class) so anyways its just a monday tuesday wednesday class and just from 8 to 11. not bad at all. well sometimes ely takes my car, i wake up and bam no car. not an issue though right? because i could just take elys car, wrong again. ya see, slcc university/redwood high/13th grade.... they take their parking permits supppperrr seriously. trust me i got a ticket for driving elys car once so this particular day stevie had no car to go to school in and the fambam had already went on their merry way...

welp guess what, stevie's got an a+ boyfriend. so i call him up and he says okay ill come get you. he does and takes me to class. well im stupid and assume that he will just come when hes summoned to pick me up. oh awesome he has to take his sweet mother to her doctors appointment. in ogden. at 10. awesome my class gets out at 10:30 (tiny bit early) so im screwed. well to say the least poop hit the fan that morning and during class so i left class and immediately started bawling. sweet. and i wasnt even having "the time of the month"

so i think oh thats okay i just can walk to the hair school area of slcc and my friend emily can take me home no problem. i call her, she says shes on her way to school from her el houseo and that shouldnt be a problem. so i sit and wait, and wait, and wait... and finally she gets there and says uhh year i am going to cut my sisters hair today sorryt bro. okay cool man.

so i call cade as im sitting on campus, people walk by and think im an idiot and im just letting it happen. cades waiting for mother inside the car so hes trying to console me and hes saying stevie its fine ill just have paul (older brother) come get you. well guess what? brother and i dont see eye to eye all the time so im not even in the mood for him. so what do i do? decide to walk home. yep. so i do, and crying as i do it. (slcc isnt extremely far away so not a huge issue in the scheme of things) oh where is slcc you say? on redwood road, one of the busiest roads in all of history probably. but who cares, im an emotional wreck. well i get sick of walking and call my dad to see if hes in the area with work. he says why the heck are you walking. stop ill come pick you up! so i say sure fine and continue walking, cause hes not way close so i was like why not do something while i would be doing nothing. so i continue walking.

i call my dad after a few minutes just to see where he is and he says hes close. so i say okay because im now about to go through a busy intersection and i say no way to that and so i just plop my body right on this patch of grass and wait.

its not even the funny part yet people....

so im sitting and waiting and watching the cars go by and i look over and i see his guy with something on his neck and hes like coughing like he cant breath or something. and then he would be fine for a few minutes and then he would pull something and start all over againg. and then all the sudden he sees me watching him and this man starts to approch. thats fine right? he couldnt POSSIBLY be headed to talk to me? nope. wrong. he comes up to me. short man, (shorter then me) and a little bit on the thicker side. long dark hair, dirty, hadnt showered in a few hours (days weeks months... after a while is there really a difference??) and he comes up to me, no joke, and says "will you pull this tight around my neck so i can die?" (bandana aroung neck)

WAS HE SERIOUS!?!?!??!
my reply to him "uh.. no?"
him-"well, why not?"
at this point i stood up to talk to him because i felt vulnerable. he was like standing over me and i was just chillin on the ground and he was blah blahing about wanting to die? wtf?
so i just was like "i dont want you to die"
him-"well i do"

awkward silence and in my head im screaming "WHAT DO YOU SAY TO THAT?!?!?"
and because ive seen to many movies and read too many books and watched the news all to often i thought oh my gosh, this man is going to kidnap me and yikes! so i said the one thing that came to my mind... "my dads on his way"
him-"what?"
me-"yeah im leaving bye"

i started walking the other way and when i finally turned around and saw him taking off his belt and doing it up around his neck. wow. what should i do? let this man kill himself, uh no. so guess what i did? called 911. yep. i did. rescue hero is what you could call me i guess. talked to 911 dispatch, got transfered to the police etc. in the mean time father finally got me and i made my way home as i continued to talk to the po-po and the disbath people etc. maybe the reason i had all these trials was so i could save him? maybe all he was, was a loony just wanting to draw attention to himself (he succeded if this is what he wanted)...

i dont know if he ever caught the guy but my goodness... that was a crazyyyyyy wednesday.