my creep

sometimes all i need to do is think of this face and everything gets better.
he's such a creep
but i love him, cause sometimes creepy people love creepy people.

phone call

todays the best day ever. yell it, write it down.. SOMETHING! i just got to talk to cade and i dont think i could ever be happier then i am right now. i feel like i just won the best prize of all!!!! i couldnt sleep last night for longer then 30 minutes and i kept checking my phone to see if i had some how missed it or whatever. anyways we got to talk for one hour, four minutes and twelve seconds... i dont know if i have ever loved an hour so much in my while life! it seems unreal that i was actually able to hear his voice! we talked about everything, school, missions, spanish, boys, kissing, hugging, hiking, loving... everything. i love him so much and it just feels like it grows everyday.
its very hard though to know what to do. here i am, being alone and away from him and boys ask me to go on dates... i go, but not because i am genuinely interested, i go because why not? i have nothing else to do, the boys that ask me to go are fun and i enjoy their company but i just know from the boys i have went out with, they are just not long term material for me. and thats how i have always been, i was never someone to just date a million boys not seriously at the same time and stuff. i was always someone that, if i liked someone then thats all that there was for a longggg time. who knows if i am supposed to end up with cade?! but as of right now, he is by far the closest i have ever came to being in love, and being someone i could see myself having a family with and all that comes from that. 
he will do amazing things in texas and i am so lucky to have him as an example for me to live in a way that i should be worthy to be with him when he comes home. 
ahhhh today was the best ever and its only 7:45.... yayayay!!!

greener

"The grass is not, in fact, always greener on the other side of the fence. Fences have nothing to do with it. 
The grass is greenest where it is watered. When crossing over fences, carry water with you and tend the grass wherever you may be." -Robert Fulghum

safe

However safe you might think you are right now, Stevie, you are even safer. However much you might think you are loved and guided right now, you are loved and guided even more. And however likely you feel your future happiness is to blossom, let me assure you, it is, in fact, inevitable. Eternally. It's simply that from within the jungles of time and space none of what I just shared is obvious, even as I hold you in the palm of my hand, because you've accepted what is unquestionably the single most daunting challenge I've ever imagined: to forget that we are one. Good on you,     The Universe

wisdom

"Do not judge me because I sin differently than you"

got it made

Perhaps the greatest of all illusions, Stevie, is that life could somehow be better than it already is. You've got it made -     The Universe

lagunaa

laguna beach lovinnnnnnnnnn!!!! i love my life! its been so fantastic today! weather has been beautiful, sun beating down on my face...pure blissss.. urgh 10 hour drive tomorrow.

but i already have plans for the rest of the week! tomorrow night hanging out with my friend shantel and visiting teaching (sigh) and then going to a basktball game with mikey yayay!!! thursday i am going on a dinner date with cotee and dimitra and friday my friends getting her face lasered again so she cant see the sun hahaha so i am hanging out with her all day! and saturday my frien liz's birthday party....whahhooo! i love my friends!

I LOVE MY LIFE!

remember....

whoever comes, they're the right people.

whatever happens is the only thing that could have.

whenever it starts, is the right time.

when its over... its over.


(credits khylee hansen)

looks good from all angles

Oh how wonderful California has been. Such a joyous time for myself as well as my family! We have been to beaches, baseball games, shopping, eating, Disneyland adventures ectcetera. I love the energy here. People waking up early, grabbing a bite to eat at a local hole-in-the-wall place, surfing, running, hiking, or doing what makes them happiness, and then off to work later in the day and then back to their local beach homes to enjoy a drink and a wonderful view from their little homes. I love it. I love it here, but I love salt lake city Utah. Utah is beautiful to me. I love the mountains, I love the seasons. I love that I can go to the mountains, a lake, motorcycling, hiking, anything… and its all only 20 minutes away from me. I can look at the Bahamas, beaches, other countries and appreciate their beauties but Utah will always look the prettiest to me, because its where I call home.